I discovered that I am a whole brain thinker.... too geeky for the artists and too artsy for the techno weenies. So, I spent a lifetime learning how to swim in both ponds. I admit that shifting between the two worlds has taken its toll on me. In college and during the early part of my corporate career, I worked to bend and mold myself into what I thought was the "right" girl to be.
Each phase of my life was filled with a cast of characters who came from all walks of life and lived all over the world. Some of these folks became permanent fixtures and eventually grew to become chosen family. Others passed through, leaving drama in their wake.
Over the years, I came to realize that it is the support of God, my friends, and family (both inherited and chosen) who helped me immensely to grow and gain wisdom. And despite all of my bending and twisting, somehow, I managed to become the woman I always wanted to be.
"No Rain" by Blind Melon
In truth, the lyrics to this song are rather depressing. They reflect a deep feeling of loneliness and isolation, combined with an extreme longing for connection. All of these emotions are the exact opposite of my post message. However, I LOVE the video's message!Yes, yes, dear reader, I selected this song based purely on the video. <gasp, then click on the above link>
Why do I like the video sooooo much? Well, I spent most of my life feeling like the little 'Bee Girl.' I was just wearing my tu-tu, doing my thang, feeling quite lonely in my life long quest of self-discovery. Of course, I met a few bumble bees and doodle bugs in random spots along the way. (Gerry, Tia, McGyver, Murph, and Tiffany - What up?!?) Then I moved to Portland, OR. And like the Bee Girl in the video, I found my wacky hive of eclectic friends. But we prefer to dance in downtown Portland and Forest Park. Life is good!
"And all I can do is just pour some tea for two and speak my point of view..."
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| Heading to Race for the Cure in our pink Minnie Mouse ears |
Arboretum trail here we come! My mom told me something when I was seven that really resonated through me. She and my aunt were acting crazy in the mall, I was embarrassed and she said, "Honey, why do you care? You'll never see these people again."
ReplyDeleteGina,
DeleteYou crack me up! I can totally see this scene. And now you have the grace and aplomb to carry off whatever you choose.
Cheryl,
You fit so beautifully in the wacky world of romance writers, too, I must say. All of us 'pegs' of weird shapes, and yet we work together like a puzzle, flowing into different parts of the picture as we grow and change.
Miss you both,
Cathryn Cade